Stubbornness and Baby Bottles

For as good and loving as I know God to be, I often resist Him. Like a toddler, I clutch my bottle of independence as a fierce display of my ability to hold something on my own. But God sees through me. He knows I can’t do it. So He waits. He waits until the crippling sensation…

When God Leads You Where You Don’t Want to Go

As I walk into this realization that God sometimes leads us where we do not want to go, my soul is torn. I hold both shock and joy, frustration and humility. I ask myself, “How could God call me somewhere I do not want to go? Isn’t He a good God? Isn’t He my friend? Isn’t…

The Process and Pain of (Mis)Understanding

Living in a foreign country has me feeling like a misunderstood teenager again. Since coming here, I developed a habit of haranguing heaven with “God, when will you let me understand why you’ve brought me to Spain? Why did you extract me from my element, country and place of comfort? How much longer until I…

Trust Fall

Do you trust me? Ultimately, that’s the question we answer in the five seconds prior to falling back into the arms of someone standing behind us, promising not to let our body slam against the floor. It’s called a trust fall. Have you ever done this? With a friend? With a sibling? With a stranger?…

Let’s go for a walk

Today, a friend of mine called me from Europe. He and another friend are backpacking the continent right; so as you can imagine, they’ve been doing a lot of walking.  I should preface: my friend has a bulging disc, which from time to time causes him biting pain. So, I asked the obvious, “How’s your back feeling?” “It…

Whatsoever Things are True: Thoughts on Anxiety

These past two weeks, I found out more than I ever wanted to know about this ill-fitting cloak labeled anxiety. I wore drooping eyes, wrinkled lines of worry, and a thick, blinding, unbearably heavy garment. Many times, I’ve talked with friends about their fears and troubles. I’ve attempted a couple mini intervention sessions. I’ve given pep talks. I’ve given…

Providential Punctuality

Don’t resent where I’ve placed you. Don’t grow anxious in the waiting. Don’t run from under the shadow of my protection. Trust me, my hand is on you. I know exactly where you are and exactly where you’re going. Trust me, you need to be here. Here, is where you will grow. Here, I’m equipping you…

I’m Not a Very Good Dancer

I’m not a very good dancer. I love watching other people dance, and I love the idea of being able to dance, but I’m not a very good dancer. I’m not talking about your typical bumping and grinding, let’s see how close we can come to making everyone around us extremely uncomfortable type of dancing….