Perhaps the most agonizing part about disobedience is waiting around for another opportunity to prove yourself faithful. Think back to your schooling days. You took a test, waited a few days and received your results.
As test scores hit your peers’ desks, students either sat up straight with confidence or slumped lower in disappointment. For those of us who’ve experienced the latter end, we know the frustration that ensues. We’ve been acquainted with the angst of wanting to just have another test already so we could blot out that painful memory.
Disobedience to God, in the big and small, feels like that. Yet, while our actions of disobedience and sin are painful— in that we have to grapple with the consequences and take responsibility for our actions— God does not leave us alone.
One of the most miraculous attributes about God is His affinity for long-suffering. A perfect God who is blameless in every way, chooses to unite Himself with imperfect humans. No matter the previous day’s failures, He points to us and says “I want you on my team.”
He is a God who’s eternally invested in His relationship with us. He is committed to weathering the most boisterous of storms that come. He will not walk out. He will not look down on us in shame when we prove to be needy or flawed. He will not scoff at, withhold from, manipulate or abuse us. Christ is never going to walk out on us. In fact, the needier we prove to be with God, the more we will see his glory in our lives. The more desperate we become for God, the stronger we will be.
So, in the time between one act of disobedience and the next act of obedience, we must wait. We must seek God, ask Him to change our hearts so keen on self-consideration and then move forward.
If you’ve been down because you know you disobeyed God in one area, then be encouraged because God is going to give you another chance. Unlike our teachers in years past, God gives us re-do’s. They may come in a different format or in a different setting, but your second, third and thousandth chance will come. When it does we must obey, because that is our act of repentance.
So, let us resolve to move forward and forget what’s behind. Let’s forget the sin, the disobedience, the doubt, the self-centeredness and press on. Let’s encourage ourselves in the truth that God is in us and He gives us the power we need to do what He wants. If only we will yield and move.
“Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:12-14