Turning around, I locked eyes with the trashed 1990s Mercedes parked down the street.
“That’s my finish line.”
Heel toe, heel toe, heel toe. Excessive pants because I’m out of shape.
Seconds into the sprint–
“It’s too far. You’re not ready. You can’t make it.”
Heel toe, heel toe. Hands on hips.
Heel toe heel toe.
That’s all it took for me to lose momentum…words.
Unquestionably words transfer power into every aspect of our lives: physical, emotional, spiritual, relational. But, I had never seen their power in quite this way, to actually stop me from running.
So now I can’t help but consider what other words I’m speaking over myself. What words am I speaking over others? What words am I letting rule my life?
“You are not enough.” “You haven’t done enough.” “You haven’t prayed enough.” “You haven’t learned enough.” “You haven’t become holy enough.” “You. have. not.”
These are just a few of the flaming lies I entertain.
Some days I aggressively and quickly fight them off. Other days I think, “maybe I haven’t learned enough, or prayed enough, or maybe I really am not holy enough, not good enough.”
Since that moment, I’ve become acutely aware of the way my body reacts to words. I’m now convinced that my body language can help me discern the truth in the words I’m hearing.
When condemning thoughts press my shoulders down and hang my head lower, I know those are not God’s thoughts. Those thoughts are not true because condemnation is not true for me and you.
The truth is God wants us to flourish. God wants us to walk confidently. God wants us to be of good cheer. (Hebrews 5:12-8 // 1 Cor 11:32 // John 16:33). The truth is God’s thoughts are equally life-giving, serious and encouraging.
The truth is that God is not interested in tearing us down. God is not interested in making us feel painfully inadequate.
He wants to build us up. He wants us to be rooted in Him so we “will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 17:8
So while the Enemy stands in the road chanting, “You do not have enough to make it to the finish line!” Christ declares, “I AM Enough. You are enough. And ‘have not’ is NOT in my vocabulary.”
With our eyes fixed on Him we’ll tear through the checkered banner. Then we’ll realize the finish line is only the beginning.