This is a more practical look at what “drowning” in my thoughts and getting back to God really looked like:
For a few weeks, I lived in the sea of my own thoughts. Doubt took the throne, and my words and actions became just as impulsive and reckless as the waves. They crashed on the nearest victims with a throttle of damaging power.
People that I love and cherish were met with emotional explosions, illogical and frivolous arguments, and to my shame and sadness, some unnecessary pain.
And I’m sorry I let myself get there. I questioned God, His will, my desires, other people’s motives, knowledge, abilities, my abilities, my self. And it was/ is a very dangerous place to be.
Why can’t we (me) just rest on this truth:
“The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything that happens along the way?” Proverbs 20:24
I don’t know. I’m still asking myself that question.
So, how to avoid drowning:
Build your foundation on The Rock.
Our foundation is the core of who we are, and it determines how we live this life and what we do with it.
We must not be careless with what we think, allowing whatever pops up to root itself in our minds. We must actively seek to align our thoughts with the firm, steadfast thoughts of God, which are found in The Bible.
Jesus said, “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock,” Matthew 7:24
So, the answer to building a rock- solid foundation? Reading the Bible and here’s the kicker: applying it!
We must strive to build our thoughts (about ourselves, others, God, circumstances) on the Rock. Build our actions on the Rock. Build our emotions on the Rock. Build our mentality on The Rock. Build our trust on The Rock. Build our relationships on The Rock. His word is the Rock.
“But God’s truth stands firm, like a great rock, and nothing can shake it, ” 2 Timothy 2:19.
Build your foundation and then maintain it. Work hard at it; protect it with all you’ve got.
Emotions, circumstances, fears, thoughts… These have no foundation, so if we cling to them, we will drown.
“Be strong in the Lord and His mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the Devil,” Ephesians 6:10.
God isn’t afraid of our problems. Our failures and weaknesses aren’t a horrific shock to Him. He won’t run away and hide. He is immovable. No matter how high the waves, how powerful, how loud, He will not move.
But we will if we don’t cling to His truth, if we don’t allow our minds to be transformed by His word.
If we don’t consciously take time to ask ourselves “Wait, is this thought in line with who God says I am? With who He says others are? Or with who He says He is?” we will remain unchanged, or even worse, we will drown in a sea of lies.
“Fix your thoughts on what is true,” Philippians 4:8.
Thank you God that nothing scares you. Thank you that there’s nothing you don’t know about us, and still you tell us to come. Thank you for the joy we have in knowing that you love to repair. You love to renew. You love to comfort and restore. Thank you that you stand ready, waiting for us, with no plans to leave or shrink away. Thank you for your bold, relentless pursuit of us. Thank you that if we remain in you, we will not be washed away, no matter how high the waves. Stir in us a deeper desire to pursue you. Reveal to us the areas of our lives where we’re unfaithful, and open our eyes to see that even amidst our unfaithfulness, you are always faithful.